#can the fandom rise already hello I wanna talk about pretty girls

[neptuniti]

D4DJ Miyu Sakurada Headcannons

first post!

i have strong beliefs miyu is an avid pink lemonade fan

➝ whether that be watermelon, strawberry, raspberry; she loves all of it

when miyu was a wee child, one of the butlers at her estate taught her how to befriend the fish in the koi pond in her garden!

➝ from time to time, miyu assists the butlers in creating food for the fish and she can even reach in the water to pet them!

when lyrical lily became more popular, they all held member specific photoshoots and miyu’s was the post popular! so popular in fact, that she appeared as the cover in multiple girl group magazines~

➝ the photoshoot pictures were her in a lace white dress, submerged in a lake surrounded by lily pads; she also had white freckles drawn on and many people went CRAZY over that

miyu learned the violin as a child and managed to get really good at it! she eventually quit though because choir activities were keeping her busy, but she’s starting to pick it up again for potential new song releases!

miyu got her first touchscreen phone at eighteen and all the lyrilily members make fun of her (lovingly) for typing on it with her pointer fingers.

when haruna goes on her tangents of records her and her father are looking for, miyu makes a point to keep them in her memory so she can look for them as well!

she has a collection of ribbons and always uses them for the smallest things because she thinks they’re pretty; something as simple as a drink from a vending machine or a record she knows haruna wants! although small, it puts the biggest smile on her face. miyu and noa eventually bond over this

in swimming, her fastest record lies in the butterfly stroke!

miyu gets sleepy when reading long novels, but she really likes historical literature! she has a whole shelf of manga from a brand that specializes in historical literature and her favorite from said brand is the Anne of Green Gables interpretation! Miyu feels she relates strongly to Anne and rereads the book quite frequently, taking note of things she didn’t notice or pay attention to before.

she has a small, lavender notebook for her historical arts class that is FILLED with quotes she would like to use in future song titles and lyrics.

➝ however, the notes are incredibly messy since she likes collecting a lot of information so every night, she goes home and transfers her notes into a medium sized, brown notebook for note taking check the next day. The nuns always compliment her for having incredibly neat notes and being very “lady like,” which never fails to make miyu sheepish.

she is a PRO at mancala and a lot of people come up to her at lunch for a rematch of last time they lost to her. for the millionth time.

she’s in her school’s chess club and is one of the representatives of it! she has a strange quirk where she can only win with the white pieces and no one knows why. when going to competitions, her team takes advantage of this and miyu never fails to let them down.

big fan of twice and loona!

outside of the synthpop music lyrilily makes, miyu has got really into new wave goth music! she likes focusing on the lyrics since they tend to be quite poetic with an added bonus of the music sounding similar to what lyrical lily creates! Miyu gets a lot of inspo from this genre.

whenever her father goes on business trips, he brings back flower pins that you can see miyu wear in her hair! she has a particular favorite because it apparently resembles, “purity” and “dreams.”

she’s assigned the honor of touring new students around campus pretty often. she can get a lot of younger girls to open up about where they came from and they end up becoming good friends!

miyu really likes scrapbooking, and she likes to view the different types of washi tapes! she uses them on practically everything, especially when sending letters out to her friends. at this point, she still does it just so she can keep using the washi tape.

esora once introduced miyu to the horoscope page on the virtual newspaper and she was infatuated with how accurate it was!

➝ now she keeps up with it through her school newspaper and takes it very seriously.

surprisingly to everyone, miyu’s favorite anime is fairy tail! when asked why, she says she wish she had super cool powers like them

➝ miiko told her that she did have a super power, and that was putting smiles on people’s faces. miyu couldn’t stop crying over it for a week :,)

thank you for joining me on my first post journey of our wonderful miyu!

the link to the ao3 version (without pictures)

[lokisasylum]

Map of the Soul: 7 Album - First listen review

[I won’t bother reviewing the ones from PERSONA that were added, since I already did a post for Persona when it came out. Only the new songs]

#1. Interlude: SHADOW

WOW.... just when you thought the first version hit hard/differently. The extended version comes in to choke-slam you against the wall.

#2.  Black Swan

Our new Royal to take a spot in the throne of power along with Blood Sweat & Tears, Spring Day, Fake Love, and Outro: TEAR.

Do we even need to add more additional to what we’ve been saying since its release? As an artist, the lyrics still pull at my heart strings the same way they did the first time I heard it. Especially the verse that says:

‘If this can no longer resonate No longer make my heart vibrate Then like this may be how I die my first death But what if that moment’s right now Right now .’

This verse can be applied to ANY time we loose faith in ourselves or have to give up on a dream/passion and how that separation slowly kills us inside.

#3. Filter (Jimin’s solo)

....Not gonna lie, this song gives me TRUST ISSUES just because its Jimin LOL!

‘Cause I remember seeing & hearing Serendipity for the first time and it was such a lovely melody and the lyrics were so soothing like a lullaby expressing Love in its purest form.

But then you see the choreo and it all went Magic Mike SO FAST X”D.

Because on one hand the lyrics (at first glance) can be interpreted as Jimin seeing himself through Army’s eyes. How WE see his “Duality” - cute/adorable/lovely one minute and then sensual/tantalizing the next.

That boring expression of yours, boring feet Please look at me now Put down your phone, don’t even think about turning your head Let me know your type You can choose and use me yeah

Oh I cover your eyes with my hand Oh go towards the secret I’ll take you to a brand new world Yeah open your closed eyes now go!

Mix the colors of the palette, pick your filter Which me do you want? The one who’s going to change your world, I’m your filter Cover it over your heart

(Ok) How is it, do you feel it a bit? Is it still not enough? (Yes) Girl you have your chance I can be your Genie How ’bout Aladdin? I’ll become anything [for you] You can choose and use me yeah

That first part really does sound like how he would accommodating his “Persona” to make us happy.  And every-time something he does isn’t enough he changes again. 

Of course this doesn’t have to mean what he’s doing in the present, “Filter” could be just like “Lie” which spoke of his past-self and how he used to blame himself for the group’s failures. So maybe he’s expressing how’s he’s had to change himself throughout the years to please the fans as long as they understood and accepted who HE REALLY IS beyond the Idol persona.

Or y’know, this is just a very sexy number he wanted to try and shy away from his comfort zone XD. And I’ll bet all my money that the choreo’s gonna be SEXY AF and WE AIN’T READY FOR IT.

P.S. that moment when the music stops and he goes: “OKAY.” WITH HIS SEXY DEEP AF VOICE, JESUS!!!!

#4. My Time (Jungkook’s solo)

Kook’s solo not only reminded me heavily of “Begin”, but it also sounds like what “Decalcomania” should’ve been if he had released the full version.

He’s seeing himself not as an Idol, but not quite as Jeon Jeongguk either.

Like he’s just standing in the middle watching his two selves, his two Personas and trying to find which one is his. Which reality he is living in--or should be living in. Which part of his life belongs to his “normal/non Idol self” and which one is part of the mask/Idol self he puts up for the fans.

And yes, you know, yes. you know Oh I can’t call ya, I can’t touch ya Oh I can’t Let me know Can I someday find my time? Finna find my time Someday finna find my time 

This verse sounds like he’s still experiencing that loneliness that all artists experience during stardom very often (Note on how in Shadow Yoongi is the one who says: “Nobody ever told me how lonely it is up here.” ). Like how he sometimes wishes he could tell someone, but can’t?

#5. Louder than bombs

All rise for our National Anthem!

If Shadow hit hard while choke slamming you. Then this song is the overkill.

The vocals are insane, and the lyrics mixed with the music tell one story through two points of view. Actor in the spotlight and Actor as a Spectator.

This is BTS telling us how people view them and having to keep their emotions in check in the face of criticism from general audience and even antis, versus how they truly feel inside and behind close doors.

Break, unwind, let it out, breathe out, stand up, pray for better days and keep moving.

#6. ON

THIS👏SONG👏FUCKING👏SLAPS👏PERIOD👏!

The energy, the rap line, the vocal line, the CRAZY FOOTWORK AND INSANE CHOREO.

THE JIKOOK NIP-SLIPS

THE BODY ROLLS

THE TATTOOS---

THE SUBTLE “GO FUCK YOURSELF!”

I LOVED IT and it gave me such a strong throwback to NOT TODAY.

#7. UGH!

This is CYPHER_pt3 Killer, CYPHER pt. 4, TEAR & DDAENG’s lovechild.

This song is the Rap Line going like: “THESE MOTHERFUCKERS WANTED TO TRY ME (AGAIN) AND IMMA GIVE THESE BITCHES A CYPHER.

BITCHES LOVE CYPHERS.”

#8. 00.00 (Zero o’ Clock)

When I saw that we were having another Vocal Line unit song the first thing I kept praying for was: “PLEASE don’t let this be another Truth Untold...”

Because I absolutely HATED the hypocrisy that came out of this fandom ESPECIALLY the toxic Solo Stans who did nothing but hype up their faves while shitting on other members (I will never forgive those who went so far as to defame and even act as if Jimin wasn’t part of the Vocal Line, ya’ll are still trash for that).

But I gotta say Zero o’ Clock was totally something I can see them enjoying while performing. Despite, of course, the song talking about hardships and finding a new way to be happy throughout the tough times even when you don’t feel like smiling.

I liked it, the vibes are a bit like “2,3″ and “Magic Shop”. A song for HEALING.

#9. Friends (VMIN sub-unit)

VMIN

SOULMATES FOREVER.

I also LOVED that they added the voice messages Jimin & Tae used to leave each other since their recording schedules were different and they didn’t see each other. That was such a nice touch. T_T

That little “Hello my Alien” .... that made me emotional. I kept imagining those mischievous kids running around playing pranks on the other members, like that one time they made Hobi fall off the chair and got chased by him XD ...*SOBS*

#10. Inner Child (Taehyung’s solo)

All the time I kept listening to this song I kept imagining Taehyung sitting in a park next to his Younger Self, like the way a father sits with their youngest son and talks to them about life. What to expect, what will change and how to go about these changes.

Really heartfelt song.

#11. Moon (Jin’s solo)

Just like Tae’s song, “Moon” makes me thinking of all those moments when Jin kept doing his “Heart Event” where he kept pulling out hearts out of nowhere. Each time more clever than the first, just to show ARMY how much he loves us.

I wonder all of a sudden, do you really know yourself? Do you know how pretty you are? I will orbit you I will stay by your side I will become your light All for you 

This part in particular makes me think of Jin up on stage staring at a stadium full of bright little stars that are in reality Army Bombs.

#12. Respect (Namgi Unit-song)

Fave verse from this song is:

“Re-spect”, it’s literally looking again and again Looking again and again and you’ll see faults But despite of that you still want to look

And the fact that you have two members of different ages (Hyung/Donsaeng), in a sort of conversation that goes back and forth between what the real meaning of “RESPECT” is and how people throw the word around, even those who speak ill of others behind their backs.

And were they talking in Satoori in the end??? That was nice XD

#13. We are Bulletproof: the Eternal

Throw stones at me We don’t fear anymore We are we are together bulletproof (Yeah we have you have you) Even if winter comes again Even if I’m blocked off, I will still walk We are we are forever bulletproof (Yeah we got to heaven)

#14. Outro: EGO (Jhope’s Solo)

EGO is Jhope and Jhope is EGO in all it’s glory.

Like “Just Dance” i like the contrast how in EGO he’s doing a back-track to his younger self, how he used to dance to prove something TO OTHERS, where as now that he’s older he just accepts that everything that happened is just part of life. So he’s a happier now doing what he loves BECAUSE he loves to dance.

#15. ON (feat. Sia)

....WHY?

Like... I don’t wanna be THAT BITCH and drag nobody, but like... was this really necessary?

I mean atleast Nicki Minage and Halsey had their own parts that they owned like the bad bitches that they are.

But like...

Yeah, Imma stop right here.

[tassium]

#TAYLOR SWIFT APPRECIATION LIFE

PART 3 - Speak Now

(part 1, part 2)

Hello and again, welcome to the Taylor Swift Appreciation Life. We hope your brief detention in the relaxation vault-- wait, wrong fandom.

This is probably getting posted in the middle of the night, which doesn’t bode well for anyone actually seeing it, but oh well. It’s time to hop in and see a little more from the amazing @taylorswift by taking the ride through her third album, Speak Now.

1. Mine

I really like this track, but I don’t have a whole lot to say about it. The storytelling in the lyrics is probably my favorite thing about it, and the way the instrumentation propels the song along. And.... I’ve heard varying opinions on the way it turns around and she’s “quoting” the love interest of the story. Personally, I like it. I like thinking of it as if he said that and it’s what inspired her to use the line as such a key part of the song.

And I’ve gotta be honest here, the POP mix bonus track version doesn’t really hit me that hard. I can’t pick out enough of a difference between the two that I really care all that much about that version.

2. Sparks Fly

This is one of my favorite tracks on this album. I like the understated instrumentation behind the verses and the way it just drops into the chorus in a way that feels like going over the first rise on a roller coaster - the way there’s nothing behind her voice for “Drop everything now” feels like that moment where you know it’s coming and you kind of pull in a breath and then you’re irrevocably In The Moment. 

She does a lot of really cool vocal things - in the second verse I love the way she does that warble on “really wish you wo-ould”. Another favorite is the vocalization in the background of the last chorus. Instrumentally speaking, the solo before the bridge is one of my favorites because of how it’s just a little different from the main motif of the song, and I adore the strident guitar and drums behind the bridge itself.

This song also has the first of several mentions throughout her songs of green eyes! Same, Taylor, same.

3. Back to December

I’m just gonna jump ahead and talk about the acoustic version of this song that’s on the target deluxe version, because if given the choice, I’d pick that one to listen to any day. The strings are my favorite part of the original version, and so the fact that the acoustic version lets them shine just that much more is excellent in my opinion. I also like the way that the harmonies stand out a little bit more - usually I prefer the ones where it’s Taylor overdubbing her own harmonies, but in this one I really like how it sounds with that male voice in the background - it actually makes me think that this song has a lot of potential for being made into a duet song with that delicious aching kind of mutual regret feeling.

4. Speak Now

I don’t know about anyone else, but I really like this song. There’s a lot of really smart choices made, both vocally and in the instrumentals (like the way the drums don’t drop in until the second half of the first verse) and overall I think it’s a solid track.

Over the course of relistening to this early work of Taylor’s for these reviews, though, I’ve also had a thought - Speak Now is the culmination of an escalating pattern of Standing Up And Stealing Other Girls’ Guys that’s been going on through both of the other albums. You have Teardrops on my Guitar, where she just pines herself into oblivion over the boy - then you have You Belong With Me, where she actually does something about it, and now we have this, where she literally breaks up an engagement IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WEDDING in order to get her chance at the boy she’s been daydreaming about.

5. Dear John

Easily my favorite track on this album. This is an optimal example of Taylor’s ability to take a song and build it up until it just explodes, even beyond the chorus. The way the song just soars in the bridge, complete with the way her voice just goes a little ragged on "burned them out”.... man. I love it. I love it so much. Another of my favorite moments is when the harmonies slide in with “run as fast as you can” as if that’s the ‘they’ who said that to her.

I think Taylor’s voice really shines in this track in a way that was really foreshadowing of her current vocal talents.

I’ll also never be over the fact that John Mayer claimed this song for being about him. He could have just been like ‘oh yeah I dunno, a dear john letter is a breakup letter right’ but no. He brought it down on himself. “You should’ve known.”

6. Mean

Mean is a jam, and I’ll fight anyone who says otherwise. I’ll bop to this song anytime. I love the bending fiddle between the chorus and the second verse, probably my favorite musical choice in the song overall. The mandolin and the banjo are way up there as well, just in general. There’s something so delightfully vindictive about this track, such a clap back at the haters - and I get Taylor singing her own harmonies, which you already know I love to pieces. (Is it just me, or could Mean be the little sister of Calm Down?)

“Someday, I’ll be, singing this at the grammy’s…. and all you’re gonna be is mean”

7. The Story of Us

THE STORY OF US IS A BANGER, END OF DISCUSSION

…..

ok not really, because I have more feelings to express first.

Taylor’s vocals soar at the end of this track, and I honestly cannot get over the sheer improvement from Fearless to Speak Now when it comes to that. Those belted notes give me life. I love the ‘next chapter’ and ‘the end’ spoken lines, they’re the best for when I’m singing along and dancing around my kitchen. This song is nearer and dearer to my heart than I even realized coming into this review, and I will go to bat for it anytime anyplace any day.

8. Never Grow Up

It sure is a song, alright. It’s a pretty arrangement, and I like the harmonies, but I... don’t have much for strong feelings about this one.

9. Enchanted

Mmmmm, this one’s so pretty. The opening, I love whatever that is in the background, maybe it’s a keyboard? It’s beautiful and ethereal, at any rate, and I love it. The track builds so beautifully to an absolute monster of a chorus - the lead guitar up into that drum hit is a classic and I love it to pieces.

And don’t even get me started on the ending “please don’t be....” etc bit and the use of stereo - listening to this track in headphones is a treat and I love the high in one side and low in the other, accompanied by that soft vocalizing centralized that leads into the belting before we hit another chorus.

It wasn’t until I was listening to this song to write this post up that I noticed that if you really focus you can hear her singing that repetition behind the second half of the last chorus, but I think it’s only on the left. It’s a really nice touch.

10. Better Than Revenge

I’m just gonna go ahead and quote you a conversation my friend @defiantlywhole had about this track to explain my feelings:

Me:  listen. listen. i fully agree with "Better than revenge? we don't know her" but. it's such a banger. i hate it. i love it. why 

Her:  SAME! Dude esp with the whole sb-squared issue. If we could just. Recognize that better than revenge is problematic and love her anyway?? Can you imagine the kind of cool shit the fandom coulda churned out last month? I just want graphics that yell THERE IS NOTHING I DO BETTER THAN REVENGE at them for trying to force Taylor to stay and then punishing her for leaving

So if you wanna know my opinions, there you go. there they are. 

Also i’m never going to be able to unhear “she’s full of springs and she’s not what you think, she’s a mattress” from @stateofswiftpod​ (have you gotten the message to listen to their podcast yet? this is the last of her main albums they’ve talked about so. now’s the time.)

11. Innocent

This isn’t a track I seek out to listen to, like, ever... but it’s a pretty piece of music, and her voice is lovely. Honestly, there’s something about it that just makes me sad, which is probably why I don’t seek it out. Listening to it to write this, thought, I am noticing a lot of things about it that I’d forgotten or maybe not even noticed in the first place - like the haunting background vocalizations that I’d missed previously, and the choices in the instrumentals. There something about this song that just feels heavy, if that makes sense. It just sits right on my chest, and I’m not sure if I like it.

12. Haunted

Speaking of liking acoustic versions of songs better, this is definitely one of them. Don’t get me wrong, I love the original version, but...The piano just hits so much harder for some reason than anything about the original manages, and her vocal delivery is so aching and beautiful and just. Shivers, every time.

The backing vocals come across as very dark, almost, fittingly so to go with a song with the topic and title this one has. Her soaring vocalization in the bridge, and the way her voice breaks when she drops into the low note... man, I can’t even. I don’t have words for what this acoustic track does to me. The note after the last chorus is what gets me the most thought, the almost mourning wavering she sneaks into it and just... I love this song, okay.

13. Last Kiss

This track is so beautiful, but speaking of songs that make me sad. Good heavens. I hadn’t listened to this one in a while prior to this listen through the album and it hit me so hard. Legitimate tears.

I can’t even put it into words - this song is a masterpiece of emotion.

14. Long Live

This song also makes me cry, but for entirely different reasons. Somehow it has even more of an impact now, after seeing everything that’s happened for her and after having been privileged enough to see her live with one of my best friends. This song takes that weight still hanging on my chest from the last few tracks and pushes it aside, replaces it with a bursting pride for this woman who I’ve never met and probably never will. She’s done so well.

To be more specific - there’s some incredible guitar work on this song, and I adore the “THIS IS ABSURD” part - and “tell them how I hope they shine” will always make me cry. I love that she wrote this song, and I love that things have only kept going. That belted “fall” at the end of that post-chorus or whatever it is that then also fades and falls away. The ethereal Aaahs in the background of the bridge. The way she leans into the last “all the mountains we moved”. Gosh. It’s all too much.

Proper full bonus track time!

15. Ours

This is definitely my favorite of the bonus tracks. I’m a little sad it got relegated to a bonus track, since there’s definitely songs that I’d cut in favor of letting this one onto the list, but I’m just glad we have it in the first place.

I’m extremely fond of this song - it’s connected to playing music with my dad (who bought me my first guitar - well, him and my mom both) because we’ve teamed up to do this song, and so that gives me all kinds of happy feelings when I listen to this one.

I don’t have much for specific comments on this one, but it’s a Good.

16. If This Was a Movie

I love the guitar opening for this song, it’s on my list of songs to learn to play one of these days. The first few times I heard the song, I definitely didn’t hear “to me-e like” properly, but now that I know what it’s supposed to be, I don’t struggle too much, thankfully. Overall, I like the song - there are things about it that I’m not super fond of, but there are more things that I do like (the drop after the bridge is definitely one of them).

17. Superman

This one’s a bop. She’s a cute little number. Optimal dancing around my room (a la the you belong with me video) material. I won’t say this track is any work of genius or anything, but it’s a solid danceable pop song, and sometimes that’s all you need.

Whew! We’ve done it again. It’s 3am where I am at the time of writing this, so I’m going to go to bed now, but tomorrow we’ll start our transition into New Taylor. I don’t know about you, but I’m excited.

Next up: Red

[write-havoc]

This Is How I Disappear Ch. 40

Summary: A girl named Chuck finds herself in the exact place she doesn't want to be, living with violent men in a desolate nursing home. After her former gym teacher finds her, will he be the savior she was looking for?

Fandom: The Walking Dead AU

Pairing: Negan/Original Female Character

Status: Completed (story continues in The Flame Is Gone, The Fire Remains)

Contains: swearing, violence, sexual assault, blood, smut

Intended for readers 18+ of age only

Masterlists in my bio

The next few days are pretty quiet for Chuck, which she’s actually thankful for. She’s also thankful for the fact that she’s been feeling pretty good, lately. Her nausea has pretty much disappeared and she hasn’t felt nearly as tired as she once was. Kayla told her that this is all normal for the second trimester and Chuck’s not complaining.

This day, Chuck wakes up to Negan barking orders into his radio from the office. Since it’s about the time she usually wakes up anyway, she rises from the bed and wraps her newly acquired robe around her and puts on her slippers. She walks through the kitchen to peek her head into the office, making sure no one else is there before she walks in.

“Morning,” she says quietly since Negan still has his radio out. She doesn’t want to disturb him too much if he still has business to attend to.

Negan puts the radio back on his belt and walks to her. “Morning, sweetheart.” He wraps his arms around her and kisses her head. “Did I wake you up?”

She hugs him tightly and kisses his cheek. “It’s okay.” She pulls back and gestures to Negan’s radio. “What was all that?”

“A fuckin’ herd went by RA outpost earlier,” he answers casually and walks to the kitchen. “Want some pancakes?”

She follows him and pours herself a glass of milk, courtesy of Hilltop and their cows. And the hill-folk always make sure to pasteurize the milk so it’s safe to drink. Which Negan made sure of before Chuck was allowed to touch it. “Yeah. Pancakes sound great.” She sits at the counter with her glass and watches Negan. “Everything okay at Rolling Acres?”

He gets the ingredients out for the pancakes as well as the griddle and a bowl while he talks. “It’s fine. The walls fuckin’ held and someone got out to lead those dead fucks away. But that’s too fuckin’ close to The Sanctuary and it shouldn’t’ve fuckin’ happened.” He starts to stir all the ingredients together to make the batter as the griddle heats up. “I’m just wondering what those dickheads who are supposed to lead herds away from my goddamn outposts were actually doing. Because it sure as fuck wasn’t their damn jobs.”

“Maybe the dead just got turned around somewhere,” Chuck provides with a shrug.

“Maybe. I’m gonna have to get some more fuckin’ blockades all around my shit. Maybe dig some trenches. Try to make it so those herds can’t get that fuckin’ close again.”

When he pours the batter on the griddle, Chuck’s mouth practically waters. Her appetite has come back full force since her nausea has gone away. “Did you talk to Rick, yet?” Chuck changes the subject.

Negan gives her a look before turning back to the stove. “Not yet. Why you fuckin’ asking?”

“I want you to get friendly with them so Aaron can visit.”

“My ‘getting friendly’ rests on Rick ‘getting friendly’. And he’s kind of a dick.”

“From what you’ve said, he sounds a lot like you.”

“You calling me a dick, little girl?” He turns around with a plate full of pancakes and sets it in front of her along with some maple syrup.

She giggles and shrugs. “I’m just saying, it seems like you guys are kinda similar. Both leaders. Both will do anything to keep their people safe.” She pours the syrup all over her pancakes and digs in.

Negan gives her a little grimace. “He’s still a dick.” He turns back to the stove to finish making his own food.

“Please be nice to them,” she starts with a full mouth before swallowing. “I don’t want to have to be enemies with my own uncle.”

Negan holds his hands up and turns his head to her. “I’ll fuckin’ try, okay? I was planning on heading out that way tomorrow anyway. Get this shit actually started between us.”

“What is their settlement like?” Chuck asks as she swirls a bite of her pancakes in the excess syrup on her plate.

Negan turns around with his own plate and sets it on the counter. He walks around to sit beside Chuck and starts eating after pouring a hefty amount of syrup for himself. “It’s fuckin’ nice. Like a perfect little neighborhood. Your fuckin’ uncle’s got it good. That is, if they can sort their whole fuckin’ food shortage situation.” He cuts himself a big bite and shoves it in his mouth with his fork.

“We can help-“

“No, baby girl,” he interrupts with food in his mouth. “I’m not giving our shit away. If they wanna fuckin’ work for it, then we can talk.” He finishes chewing and swallows before shoving another bite in his mouth.

“But we do have a lot of food. And now we have the crops at Rolling Acres and Hilltop.”

Negan lets out a sigh. “Chuck-“

She doesn’t let him finish. “I’m just saying, trade is possible. If they need food, then they can provide something and we can provide them food. Savior-ing isn’t just for fair maidens. Sometimes dicks named Rick and his people need a little saving, too.” She giggles a little at herself and takes a bite.

He gives her side eye, but looks amused underneath it. “I’m gonna talk to Rick. And we’ll fuckin’ see what comes after that.”

 Later that day, Chuck decides to take a walk outside since the weather is still pretty mild. And since she’s finding herself with a bit more energy as of late. As she walks the halls, she starts to notice that people are giving her little nods as she passes. At first, she ignores it, thinking that it means nothing. But once she realizes that they are actually nodding at her, she starts to greet them back. They all smile warmly at her as they continue on their ways. Some of them even giving her congratulations for the baby and shaking her hand.

It’s a change for Chuck. She’s used to being ignored for the most part. And that’s the way she’s always liked it. But the way that everyone is being so accepting of her and so happy with the news of the baby has a warmth growing in Chuck’s heart.

Chuck finds herself outside and near the gardens. When she looks around, she sees the familiar faces of the women that she helped in the garden after the hurricane came through. Plus one unfamiliar face. She walks up to the women and gives them a little wave.

“Hello,” Chuck greets the women.

When they all look up at her with unsure looks on their faces, Chuck gets nervous.

  Oh god. I got too confident. I’m bothering them and they don’t want me here. Or maybe they don’t remember me...

 Chuck puts her hand on her chest. “It’s Chuck. I, um, helped you guys out for a little bit after the big storm.”

“Y-Yeah,” Irene answers. “We remember you. It’s just... You’re a wife.”

Chuck gives her a confused look. “Yeah?”

“Wives don’t usually come out here,” Patty jumps in.

“Yeah,” Natalie agrees. “Like never.”

“Well, I do,” Chuck responds then looks down at her feet. “But, I guess I’ll leave you guys alone...” She starts to turn away, but Irene stops her.

“Wait,” Irene calls out. “You don’t have to leave, Chuck. We’re just not used to having a wife around here. Let alone the one that’s pregnant. Negan won’t be angry that you’re out here with us, right?”

“No,” Chuck answers, feeling a little relieved. “I’m allowed to leave the fifth floor.” She bends down and touches one of the plants gently. “Can I help?”

The women look all around at each other. “Uh, sure,” Patty answers almost like a question. “As long as that’s... allowed.”

Chuck kneels down and follows the women’s instructions on what to do with the plants, which is mostly just weeding. They start to tell her about how they’re planning on preparing the gardens for winter and what crops can grow late, since it’s almost harvest time already. They also tell her about the plans to make some greenhouses, so everyone can have some fresh veggies all year round.

Eventually, the unfamiliar woman introduces herself. “I’m Paula, by the way.”

Chuck gives her a smile and greets her, but doesn’t extend her hand since both of their hands are covered with dirt.

Paula clears her throat. “I-I came here with...” Paula wipes her face with the back of her hand. “Um... I just wanted to say that I’m sorry for what happened to you. I lived at the outpost with Brendon for a month and I didn’t know he-“

“It’s okay,” Chuck cuts her off, not really wanting to talk about all that. “It’s-It’s all done now.” She gives the woman a little smile as if to tell her not to worry about it.

Paula nods. “I’m just glad you’re okay. And the baby, too.”

Chuck gives her another smile and turns her head back to the soil. She’s not really liking the tense air between all of them, so she decides to lighten it up a little. “Did you guys enjoy the party?”

They all laugh and turn their heads to Natalie, who looks a little ashamed.

“We all had a very good time, didn’t we Natalie?” Irene can barely get the sentence out through her chuckles.

“Shut up, okay?!” Natalie cries out, but with a smile on her face.

Chuck giggles at the women. “There’s a story here, isn’t there?”

“No!” Natalie exclaims.

“Yes!” all the other women yell at the same time.

“Ugh!” Natalie groans, but starts the story anyway. “I might’ve drank too much and maybe I... kinda gave a lap dance to a random savior.”

“You did more than that since you did the walk of shame all the way down from the fourth floor the next day!” Irene gives Natalie a little nudge on the arm.

Natalie giggles and shrugs a shoulder. “That part of the night I don’t regret. He broke my little dry spell. And he broke it very well.”

Everyone laughs hard until they’re interrupted by Simon, who they didn’t even see approaching them.

“You girls seem to be having a lot of fun out here,” Simon calls out as he puts his hands on his hips.

“It’s just girl talk, Simon,” Chuck provides, still giggling.

“Girl talk, eh?” he says with a nod.

“Yeah,” Chuck confirms. “This is Natalie, Irene, Patty, and Paula.” She points the women out to Simon as she says their names.

They all greet him.

“Hi.” Patty gives him a shy little wave after everyone else calls out their greetings.

Simon gives her a nod. “Nice to meet you ladies.” He looks down to Chuck. “You okay down there, kiddo?”

“I’m good. I kinda like working with the plants.” Chuck gives a little shrug. “It’s... relaxing.”

“Good, good. Well,” Simon hoists his pants up, “you ladies have a good day.”

“Bye,” Patty gives him another little wave and watches him walk off. “You could bounce a quarter off that ass,” she mutters as her eyes are still on him, and everyone laughs.

 ——— Negan’s POV ———

I’m sitting at my desk looking over some maps of the fuckin’ area, thinking about where we could put blockades and shit when I hear a tap on my doorframe. I look up and see Kayla standing there, wringing her hands.

“Can I come in?” she calls out.

“Of course, darling.” I take my glasses off and stand from my chair, gesturing to the seat in front of my desk. I wait for her to take her seat before I sit back down. “What’s going on?”

She looks nervous. “Um... So... I’ve been thinking about everything and, uh...” She clears her throat. “Uh. Well...”

I already know what she’s gonna fuckin’ say. I’ve been wondering when this day would come. “Just spit it out, darling.”

“I don’t want to be a wife anymore,” she blurts out. “It’s just that... I want something real.” She pauses, then starts to wave her hands in front of her. “N-Not that being with you has been bad or anything!” She says quickly. “It’s been good. I just want something... more.”

“It’s okay, Kayla,” I say gently to calm her down. “You wives always had the choice to leave any time you fuckin’ wanted. You know I’m not gonna fuckin’ punish you for leaving.”

“I know. But no one else has just quit before. And I’ve been wrestling with it because it’s a big decision.” She lets out a heavy breath. “It involves more people than just you, really. The other wives are like my family, too.”

“Yeah. You girls have always been fuckin’ good to each other.”

She stares at me for a moment. “You know you haven’t really needed us since Chuck came here.”

I blink at her and nod once.

“I knew you didn’t love us, or anything. I knew what our relationship was and I was fine with it. I didn’t think I would ever want anything more than that after the turn. But, this place has become so much more than what I thought a place could be now. It’s safe, secure. It’s a real community. And people have families.” She gives me soft smile and I realize why she’s really asking to leave. “I want a chance for that.”

“You deserve that, Kayla. I fuckin’ mean that. You were always such a sweetheart. If you wanna join the workforce, you have my fuckin’ blessing.” I look her in the eyes. ��And you’d be an excellent mother.”

She smiles at me and laughs a little. “Thanks.”

I let out a breath. “But I don’t want you moving downstairs until Chuck has the baby. You don’t have to be a fuckin’ wife, but I want you up here close to her.”

“Okay. I can do that.” She lets out a sigh of relief and relaxes into the chair. “I was thinking, since Chuck isn’t working with Dr. Carson anymore, I could take her place as his assistant. I already have the midwife stuff down, so he can teach me the more general stuff like he did with Chuck.”

I nod. “Sounds fuckin’ good to me.”

Both of our heads turn to the door when Chuck randomly comes walking into the room with her head fuckin’ down looking at her hands. When she finally lifts her head and sees us, she jumps a little and stops.

———   ———

 “Oh, shoot!” Chuck says when she sees Kayla and Negan in the office. “I’m sorry I interrupted you guys. I was just going to wash my hands.” She holds her dirty hands up. “I’ll just go to the wives bathroom.” She turns to go back out the door.

“You can stay, Chuck,” Kayla calls out. “I was just about done anyway.”

“Oh, ok.” Chuck figures that Kayla just told Negan about wanting to move back downstairs. But she’s not going to bring it up if they don’t. That seems like it should be a private conversation.

Chuck washes her hands in the kitchen and comes back out to the office.

“Were you playing in the dirt?” Negan asks with a smirk.

Chuck sits in the chair beside Kayla. “Actually, I was. I helped the gardeners a little bit.”

Kayla scrunches up her face. “Getting dirty isn’t my idea of fun.”

“I’m just gonna let that one fuckin’ slide,” Negan mutters with a chuckle.

Both women roll their eyes, but giggle nonetheless.

“How are you feeling?” Kayla asks Chuck.

“Really good. I didn’t really realize how crappy I felt in the first trimester until I started to feel a little bit better. But I am having a little pain like you said I might.”

“Pain?” Negan asks quickly.

Kayla holds her hand out to calm him down. “It’s normal. The uterus is expanding and it can cause some pain. Nothing to get freaked out about.”

“I’m just so glad I’m not nauseous anymore,” Chuck cuts in. “But I’m starting to want to eat everything.” She chuckles. “And I swear I would actually kill a man for some chocolate. Not like some stale three year old chocolate bar either. Like something actually good.”

Everyone laughs.

“You and me both, Chuck,” Kayla says with a giggle.

 After Chuck and Negan finish their dinner that night, Negan leads Chuck to the room directly beside his bedroom. He pulls out a key and unlocks the door, pushing it open with some force as it stuck a little. When the pair walk into the room, Chuck lets out a disappointed noise as she looks around.

Negan chuckles. “What?”

“This is the only locked room up here. I thought you kept something important or,” she brings her hands up and wiggles her fingers dramatically, “mysterious in it.”

As it is, the room is completely empty. Except for the unfinished walls jutting out of the right side of the room. Chuck realizes that these must be from Negan’s closet and bathroom. When they built his bedroom, they must’ve built into the room next door, then did nothing else with the rest of the room.

“Sorry to disappoint, sweetheart.” He laughs. “We just never needed this this space for anything so we fuckin’ left it.”

“I see that. Now.”

“You could’ve just asked what was in here.”

She shrugs. “Where’s the mystery in that?”

He walks forward into the room and raises his arms out wide. “What do you think?”

Chuck looks around. “It’s ugly and concrete and half of it’s not finished,” she jokes.

A frustrated sigh leaves his lips. “Smartass.” He chuckles before continuing. “Right there,” he points to to the wall to Chuck’s right, “that leads to my room. We can put a door right there and make this,” he gestures to the space in front of it, which is beside the unfinished jutting wall, “a hallway. And everything else,” he gestures widely to the room, “will be the fuckin’ nursery.”

Chuck can’t help the smile that appears on her face at the thought. “It’s perfect.”

“Good.” Negan goes over to her and wraps her in a hug. “I already got some guys on it, so they’ll start getting shit done in here fuckin’ quick. After the goddamn hurricane, I had some guys loot some old hardware stores for building materials and shit just in case we needed it.”

Chuck pulls away to wander around the room, thinking of what it will look like when everything’s done. “What colors do you want? For the walls and stuff.”

“Don’t we need to fuckin’ wait to see if it’s a boy or a girl?”

She turns back to him and shrugs. “Not really.” She turns back to the wall and waves her hand at it. “I’m thinking maybe a pastel-y teal-y color. I think the blanket I’m making will go with that. And that’s pretty gender neutral. Not that that’s really important, anyway.”

“‘Pastel-y teal-y’?” He chuckles. “I love it.”

She walks over to him and grabs his hand, leading him to the back wall. “We can put the crib here,” she points to the area then moves her hand to point at another. “And a changing table here.”

“Crib. Changing table. Got it,” he rattles off, almost teasing. “We got a ton of baby stuff in storage. We keep that shit out of the marketplace so it’s fuckin’ available for anyone that gets knocked up. Don’t want anyone hoarding that shit and trying to sell it on their fuckin’ own for a profit.”

She turns to the window. “Oh. I’ll need a chair for nursing, too.” She smiles sadly at a memory that comes to mind. “My grandpa built this gorgeous rocking chair for my grandma when she was pregnant with my mom. And she used it to nurse my mom and her brother. When my mom was pregnant with me, my grandparents gave it to her to use. I used to play on that chair all the time when I was little. Play until I wore myself out.” She chuckles. “Then my mom would sit down in it and hold me in her arms until I’d fall asleep.” Chuck’s smile slowly fades. “I sat in it after I buried her.” She shakes her head of her memories and changes the subject. “Should we start thinking of names?”

Negan looks at her a moment then gives a little shrug. “‘Negan’ if it’s a boy and... ‘Negan’ if it’s a girl,” he jokes.

“That’s not happening.” Chuck giggles.

He snakes his arms around her and pulls her hips into his. “You got any fuckin’ better names?”

“I will definitely think of some.” She thinks for a second. “Parker.”

“Nope. Taught a kid named Parker and he was a little asshole.”

“Hmm... Martin?”

“Nah.”

“What about Barbara for a girl?”

“Are you planning on giving birth to an old fuckin’ woman?!” He chuckles.

Chuck laughs. “We could call her Babs for short! That’s cute!”

“Pass.”

She lets out a frustrated groan. “Fine. We have a lot of time yet to pick out names.”

Negan pulls her body tighter into his and lowers his mouth to her ear. “The only name I wanna hear you say tonight is mine, little girl. And you’re gonna be fuckin’ screaming it,” he practically growls.

Chuck feels her whole face heat up at his words, but she doesn’t pull away. Instead, she turns her head to place her lips to his ear. “I think I’d like that,” she whispers.

“Fuck,” Negan breathes out and stands to his full height. He grabs ahold of Chuck’s hand and pulls her out of the room quickly.

Chuck giggles as she’s pulled behind Negan; his large, fast strides have her practically jogging. As soon as they get into the bedroom, clothes are frantically stripped off with hands pawing wildly at one another.

Chuck turns away from Negan to turn down the bed spread and sheets. When she bends down to do so, Negan spanks her once.

“Negan!” Chuck squeaks out and whips around to see him.

He gives her the most innocent look he can muster and shrugs a shoulder. “Couldn’t help it, baby. That ass was just fuckin’ begging to be spanked.”

“Is that so?” she teases.

“Mmhmm.” He eyes her lasciviously and pulls her in for a passionate kiss by the back of her head. He suddenly pulls away and spins her around to face the bed, smacking her lightly on the bottom as he pushes her to bend over with her hands on the bed. “Fuck, you look so pretty like this.” He runs his hands down her back, his left staying to grip her hip while his right moves to her sex.

Chuck arches her back and spreads her legs further apart to give him better access.

“Goddamn, you’re my good girl,” he rasps while running his fingers through her folds. “You gonna cum for me like a good girl?” He starts to swirl his fingers around her clit slowly.

“Yes,” she answers breathlessly.

When he inserts the fingers of his other hand and starts to thrust them just right, Chuck lets out a soft moan. She bends down further to lean on her elbows and sets her forehead on the bed.

“That’s it, baby. Give it to me.” He speeds up his pace on her clit and angles his fingers inside her to hit all the right spots as he continues to massage her walls.

“Oh god, Negan.” Her thighs start to twitch as her pleasure builds.

“Fuckin’ say my name again, baby.” He speeds up even more and Chuck can’t hold back.

“Negan. Mmm. Oh god, Negan!” Her whole body tenses as she tips over the edge, pleasure racing through her like lightening.

Negan works her through her orgasm then wraps an arm around her hips, lifting her up. “Put your knees on the bed.” He pats the back of her leg with his free hand to indicate what he wants.

Chuck obeys, bringing her legs up on the bed so she’s on all fours.

“Oh fuck, you look hot as shit like this. Spread those knees.”

She obeys with a giggle and arches her back to look over her shoulder back at Negan.

He bends down to kiss her between her shoulders before standing back up and entering her with a low groan. He grasps her hips and pulls her into him as much as he’s thrusting into her. His pace is slow at first, but builds quickly.

“Fuck,” Negan breathes out and leans his head back. “So fuckin’ good.”

“Ah!” Chuck clenches her fists into the sheets and starts to buck and push her hips into him as she lowers her shoulders to the bed. “Please, Negan.”

He grabs her waist and pounds into her so fast and so deep that Chuck is coming undone again in no time.

“Fuck. Goddamnit!” Negan loses his rhythm and cums deep inside her with a loud growl.

Chuck collapses onto to bed as soon as he lets her go, still trying to catch her breath. Negan cleans her up gently and pulls her to lay on his chest in the bed.

“Fuck, baby girl. If you weren’t pregnant already, I’d want to put a baby in you.”

She laughs without opening her sleepy eyes and cuddles into him more. “I’d let you,” she whispers.

He chuckles softly and kisses her head.

“I love you, Negan,” she says before she falls asleep.

“I love you, Chuck.”

[seenashwrite]

“Sweetheart,” Dean said, looking right into her eyes, “I think you should...”

Careful! How you finish that line is gonna make-or-break how well you’ve captured Dean Winchester in that fic you’re working on. Why, you may ask? Keep reading. And to you who are familiar with this topic... 

NOTE: Any subsequent “add-ons” via others sharing their thoughts on the topic which resulted in other posts will be linked at the bottom!

Abstract

Persistent usage in fandom writings ascribing one Dean Winchester a mannerism that relates to interactions with those he is romantically involved - specifically, the substitution of their name with “sweetheart” - is shown via evidence-based research to be in conflict with this fictional character’s established persona and speech patterns thus far.

Data

For your quick ref convenience, “sweethearts” meant in the traditional sense of the word have a ❤️ by the episode title. Let us begin. The facts are these:

SEASON ONE

1.02 Wendigo

[TO FEMALE CHARACTER] Well, sweetheart, I don’t do shorts.

1.16 Shadow

[DEAN looks at MEG, who smiles at him] Oh, sweetheart—you’re dumber than you look…

Later–>

MEG: You know, that shotgun’s not gonna do much good. DEAN: Oh, don’t worry, sweetheart. The shotgun’s not for the demon.

SEASON TWO

2.06 No Exit

[TO JO] Sweetheart, this ain’t gender studies. Women can do the job fine. Amateurs can’t.

SEASON THREE

(The writers’ room got a real hard-on for it this season)

3.04 Sin City

[TO FEMALE CHARACTER] You know, you’re piling it pretty high there, sweetheart. I’m not sure I’m buying.

3.06 Red Sky at Morning

[TO BELA] Well, sweetheart, I don’t need your kind of help.

3.07 Fresh Blood

[TO FEMALE CHARACTER] Well, I hate to tell you this, sweetheart, but your blood’s never pumping again.

3.11 Mystery Spot

[TO FEMALE SERVER] ‘Scuse me, sweetheart? Can I get sausage instead of bacon?

3.12 Jus in Bello

[TO BELA] Oh, I’ll find you, sweetheart. You know why? Because I have absolutely nothing better to do than to track…

3.15 Time Is on My Side

[TO BELA] Sweetheart, we are weeks past help.

SEASON FOUR

4.01 Lazarus Rising ❤️

[DEAN approaches the IMPALA, runs a hand along it] Hey, sweetheart, did you miss me?

SEASON FIVE

5.09 The Real Ghostbusters

[FEMALE CHARACTER walks into the room nervously] I don’t wanna do this.

[DEAN leans around the corner] I’m right here sweetheart, I’ve got your back. Trust me, this is going to work. [he then pulls back so he can’t be seen grimacing]

5.11 Sam, Interrupted

[FEMALE CHARACTER walks in their direction]

[DEAN spots her] Oh, no, no, no. Not today, sweetheart. Come on, keep walking…

5.12 Swap Meat

FEMALE SERVER: Here you go, guys.

DEAN: You know, do me a favor, sweetheart. Would you bring me a cheeseburger with extra bacon? And fry an egg on top of it, would you?

SEASON SEVEN  

7.17 The Born-Again Identity

MEG: That hurts my feelings. I’ve been good to you, Dean.

DEAN: No, you’ve been good to you, sweetheart.

SEASON EIGHT

8.08 Hunteri Heroici

FEMALE CAREGIVER: You’re not supposed to be here.

DEAN: Well, trust me, sweetheart, you got bigger fish.

SEASON TEN

10.02 Reichenbach

[FEMALE DANCER is disgusted; she moves to leave]  And we’re done.

[DEAN grabs at her] Hey, hey, hey. Song’s not over, sweetheart.

SEASON TWELVE

12.17 The British Invasion ❤️

[DEAN looks down sight of newly-returned Colt] Welcome back, sweetheart.

SEASON THIRTEEN

13.16 - Scoobynatural ❤️

[DEAN prepares to swing sledgehammer at enchanted TV] Sorry, sweetheart.

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SEASON FIFTEEN

15.10 - The Heroes' Journey ❤️

[DEAN grabs the grenade launcher] Hey, sweetheart.

Analysis

Of 15 seasons and 320 total episodes aired as of this writing, "sweetheart" appears in [*adult] Dean's dialogue 20 times in 19 episodes. So, 19 is 5.9375% of 320. That's not even one quarter.

He just doesn’t use the word often, folks.

[Note: to get a precise percentage of its appearance in his actual dialogue, you’d need to count every single word the man has spoken - I’d think taking out “a”, “and”, “the”, and “I” would be acceptable - and good luck, there. I ain’t your girl. Another possibility would be to compare “sweetheart” to other nicknames he’s given people - again, knock yourself out. This is just to illustrate its appearances across seasons. A tangential comparison? Take your number of fics involving Dean - i.e., your # of episodes - count the “sweethearts”, and do your percentage.]

Of the 20 usages, 4 are of a clearly affectionate nature: once to Baby the Impala, once to the Colt, once to the enchanted television, once to the grenade launcher.

The remaining uses - all directed at female characters - are of a false comfort, patronizing, and/or manipulative nature, because a portion of Dean’s persona is that of an irredeemable asshole. The character is greater than the sum of his parts, true - but that is an undeniable part.

Thus, this does not seem to be a substitute name Dean Winchester bestows upon persons of a beloved nature. It is scantly, possibly endearing - albeit patronizing - when he’s used it as a substitute name for waitresses.

Visual Aids

[Note: Someone jokingly asked for a pie chart last time - ‘cause hello, what’s a Dean topic without PIE! - and I did them and they were silly. Here’s the replacement, which IMO is an improvement and completely scientifically accurate, I’m sure you’ll agree]

Wrap Up

Could there be any exceptions?

Sure. If he's Demon!Dean and it's not romantic and is a pure smutty hate f*ck - in that instance, the data would most assuredly support the author’s choice.

Also supportable would be complete off-the-rails AU fics [as in: Dean's not a hunter, he's a mechanic from Regular Town, USA] because in those cases, no one expects him to be canon-friendly.

Here, have a cheat sheet:

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And what’s my personal opinion?

Dean doesn’t call people of significance by that endearment in a heartfelt manner, reserving it solely for inanimate objects (Baby, the Colt, the TV, and the grenade launcher), because they pose no threat of rejecting him. So... maybe it actually does mean something loving and sentimental to him. Maybe that’s why he hasn’t used it on someone he’s crazy about.... has he met that person yet? Again, maybe. Are the writers doing this purposefully? Is Jensen maybe slipping a handful of ‘em in, as well? Ya got me.

In any event, there’s the obvious: They’re all objects to him, useful for specific tasks regarding things he needs/wants - food, beer, sex, baiting a ghost, mindless entertainment - or they’re an adversary who is standing between him and something he needs/wants. Either way, all ultimately disposable. That ain’t sweet, nor does it have heart.

Bottom line

If you are professing that your story is canon?

Stop. Having. Dean. Call. You. Sweetheart.

You, your O.C., the friend you're writing into a fic so they can get boned by Dean, any other character you're having Dean bang-a-rang... if they don't go VROOOOM or go BOOM or go ZOOM, it's an inappropriate nickname.

Hypothesis on overall reception by SPN fanfiction authors, specifically those writing Dean in sexual/romantic encounters?

Utter rejection.

* Final Note: there is Teenage Dean usage of a snot-faced “sweetheart” that further supports the hypothesis, however it has been excluded due to age - as the topic is Dean in romantic/sexual fanfics - and due to the fact this was already a slam-dunk case. 

Astute data-crunching followers have also pointed out the use of “sweetheart” by one John Winchester in a patronizing manner towards a female vampire. 

The original data crunch - linked at top - also noted the use of an affectionate “sweetheart” by one Mary Winchester, which was directed towards Baby. 

Sam is not covered here because I don’t care about him.

I’m kidding. To not care would be something, and I nothing Sam.

I’m kidding. 

See? He gets me. 

(Sources: Available SPN Wiki transcripts)

ETA: More sweetheart talk via “Dear Nash” HERE and HERE

ETA #2 [Feb. 2018]: Nash’s breakdown of how to assess & choose a NON-sweetheart endearment specifically for “Dean In Love” situations is HERE  

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* Up to date as of July 2020 *

[sleepybiflinge]

Hello there. I see you've been posting a lot about something called hive. What is it? It seems interesting! Is there anything you can tell me about it? Have a good day!

Oh boy, am I glad you asked!!!! H.I.V.E. is a book series by Mark Walden (not to be confused with the DC version of HIVE that most people know) HIVE stands for Higher Institute of Villainous Education and it is TO THIS DAY(!!!) my favourite book series. I love books, and there are tons I have read and reread, and none of them match up. It’s so good that recently I’ve been rereading them and have fallen in love with it all over again (hence the constant HIVE related posts lately). 

Okay, now that I’ve finished gushing about it without explanation, time for actual plot: HIVE is, as the expanded title above should tell you, a series of books about a school of Villainy. Like, straight up, training little kids to be evil geniuses that would eventually rise up to rule the world. How is that not cool? As you can imagine, the main characters involved get into all sorts of trouble and disaster (a lot of the books take place outside of the school, and it’s so well written, although I would like a lot more actual in-school class experiences too, but oh well, c’est la vie!) This book has everything! From super cool Villains that you love to complete asshole villains that you can’t wait to see die, to Artificial Intelligences wrecking shit, to Robot ninjas, Actual ninjas, Talking cats, Giant carnivorous plants, mind control, space stations, giant ships, oh so many ninjas and AI, and death. Lots and lots of death. Oh my god, literally no one is safe. Nothing is sacred. Anyone can die at any point and time. Every character you love will, at some point, be damaged in one way or another. 

Rereading the books now, I realize just how much Mark Walden affected my writing style as a whole. Although I have nowhere near as much snark as he does in his writing. I hope I can write something that will one day rival his own work, but this is not about me, this is about H.I.V.E.

So let’s get into the characters, shall we? At least ones featured in the first book, because I don’t wanna spoil anything. (if you wanna avoid a lot of the spoilers from me, please track the tags h.i.v.e. or HIVE! if this ends up enticing you to read it)

Otto Malpense: The brilliant main protagonist of the story! What a character! Like, the development of this man throughout the first book is astounding! This white haired kid is an evil genius with basically a perfect photographic memory that can read books basically just by looking at them! He is a brilliant inventor and a (fairly decent) hacker and his backstory is pretty cool. (for lack of spoilers, he was a 13 year old who basically ran an orphanage. There is more. I won’t tell you. Mysteries, dude.)

Wing Fanchu: By far my favourite character. He’s a tall, handsome Chinese boy that has amazing martial arts skills and is overall kick ass. Did I mention he’s handsome as heck? AND badass? Then again, all these kids are badass. Anyway, Wing is one of the most loyal people ever and will do anything for his friends, he’s such a sweetheart. 

Shelby Trinity: An american girl who is actually the world’s greatest thief called the wraith. She is probably the funniest character, and seeing her clash with Otto is the friggin best, okay? Also I ship her and Wing IMMENSELY.

Laura Brand: She’s the true techie of the bunch, okay? She hacked an airforce station so that they would spy on a girl that she thought was talking shit behind her back, okay?!?! like HOW BADASS IS THAT?!?! She’s the greatest hacker ever and the things she can do with tech... I have a lowkey crush on Laura Brand, okay? But then again, so does Otto. (Learn this: THEY ARE THE SMARTEST IDIOTS THAT YOU WILL EVER COME ACROSS! That is all.)

Nigel Darkdoom: Yes, I know, I know. There’s always someone in these novels with a name that is utterly ridiculous like this. Trust me, this poor kid is not Dark (although the doom part can be argued, but that’s another story) Okay, at least not at first. This kid lives in his father’s shadow and everyone has high expectations of him but he is just... Kinda average. (His father, by the way, is the notorious villain by the name of, wait for it, Diabolous Darkdoom. Yup. I love these books.)

Franz Argentblum: He’s mostly the comic relief character, but he’s still awesome and I love him. He’s the stereotypical fat kid that loves food, but he’s also very skilled (I promise. It may take a while, but you’ll see.)

Nero: The headmaster of the school. Totally the most intimidating person ever (kinda, he’s actually a total softie nerd bitch baby, but don’t say that to his face) In all seriousness though, he’s a total badass and don’t mess with him or his students... 

Raven: THIS is the MOST BADASS CHARACTER IN THIS ENTIRE SERIES!!! She is a Russian Assassin that will totally kill anyone and everyone in her way. Besides Wing she is probably my favourite, and not just because she’s Russian. Actually, since I talked shit on Nero just a few seconds ago, I’ll probably be getting a visit from her at some point here...

H.I.V.E.mind: You remember how I mentioned A.I.? Well here comes my BOI!!! This dude is the friggin coolest. And he’s extremely (nearly impossibly) advanced. I just love the amount of advanced tech that this book provides and how realistic it makes it seem, and HIVEmind’s just... Well, you’ll see. (I hope) He’s a sweetheart. But then again, I consider almost everyone in the book a sweetheart for a novel filled with villains, lol.

Okay, I’m going to stop there. Because I may have said too much already. There’s so much more, but I’m sick and getting tired, and there’s only so much I can say. Hopefully I was good at not spoiling, but keeping the intrigue. ‘tis a tough balance. Just know that I found these books in my darkest moments and they gave me so much pleasure and just... Inspired me so much. And through these books I have met so many wonderful people (A lot of them are still on here a bit, and I try as much as I can to keep up with them). The H.I.V.E. fandom on tumblr is pretty small, and recently has been more silent than ever, but I’m hoping to change that. Plus, book 9 is coming out soon, so there’ll be a party and a full blown revival of the fandom as we all get excited yet again since it’s been quite some time since the last book... Anyway, hope that convinced you!!! :) 

Do Unto Others! 

-RAB

[girlfriendintraining-blog]

Hello

Hello, and welcome to my Tumblr blog about relationships and being clueless in love. Now I’ve created this blog on Tumblr because like most of us, its not as public as a blogspot or Wordpress. Everyone here is their own individual and most of us just get each other, ya know? At least thats what I’m hoping.

So you've stumbled upon my blog, upon this post. What’s this all about? Well... its exactly what it says, “Girlfriend in Training.” Now, I may be old enough to drink but I have no fucking clue what to do when it comes to being a girlfriend. As of, about six months ago, I entered into my first ever relationship. Yeah, crazy right? 21 but hasn't had a boyfriend yet? At least thats what I get a lot, but whatever man, I like to do me. 

But anyway, thought these last six months I’ve been going out of my mind trying to figure out “feelings” and “emotions.” I just don't get it. Im lost, stressed and going partially insane. But thats what I’m here to share. My experiences, hoping that other girls, or guys, like me will be aided in their relationships as I share my experience. And if it’s not relatable to any, and I’m all on my own on this one. Then I hope you are entertained. But I’m done talking about what is to come right now. This whole post was supposed to just be about me so now I’m gonna talk about me.

So, yeah I’ve said it before, Im 21 (and a fan of alcohol, yes) I’m a senior in college and I love everyone and everything. I am fiercely independent but I love people. I’ve put myself in a bubble most of my life. I don’t know why, my parents are pretty awesome and lenient. They've always supported me and my brother on living our lives and fulfilling our dreams. They never really restricted us, they always told us whats bad out there but whatever they did, it made us not want to get into too much trouble. It’s not like they scared us, they just didn't make things a big deal. But anyway, right now I don't really know what I wanna say about me but I can give you a few things to go off of:

For my Myers Briggs peeps:

I am and ENFP--The Campaigner. Super accurate by the way.

For my ASTROLOGY Fanatics (Im 110% in this bracket):

I am an Aries Sun with a Virgo Rising and Aquarius moon and boy do my placements give me shit in this field. You should see my Venus and Mars Signs (Gemini and Aries). Sidenote (I have no water in my chart, that means that feelings and emotions and expressing can come hard to me--my poor boyfriend)

And last but not least, my fandoms and fan fiction pals:

I’m a Dean girl, who also relates to Dean on a deep level

Although I do not follow Harry Potter closely, I am Ravenclaw

I fucking love Hunger Games, and I got to liking (a little) the Divergent series

And to end it, I love all the fan fiction I read. 

There's more to me, but its late and this post is already long so I will end it here. I hope this interests some people, and I hope my struggles can help. This is going to be therapeutic for me regardless so whatever happens, happens.

Stay Classy Peeps